Trapped!!

Day 2 of Blog
Weight- 220
Diet Sodas- 0
Cheats- 2 Dark Chocolate Truffles
Gym- 1 hour of Zumba
Mood- Discouraged

The name of my blog came about because I feel very trapped inside this fat girl shell. This is never more evident than the days when I exercise, particularly Zumba. Zumba is aerobic exercise based on Latin dance, and most of the time it is a lot of fun. Sometimes however it just frustrates me. Now I never really fancied myself a dancer, in fact I was never really very graceful at all, but I was able to pick up simple combinations and perform them. This was a necessary skill for any musical. In fact at 16 I played Leisel in the Sound of Music and did a pretty decent gazebo number. Now I am hindered by my body, I can no longer do things I think I should be able to do. I watch the instructor do a combo and think, "piece of cake I can do that" but then my body won't let me. My feet and knees hurt, or I am just not flexible enough, or parts of my body get in the way. I feel weak, and I hate it. You see I am usually good at most things I do. It is just this weight thing that I just can't seem to get right. I want to break out of this shell, I want to go to a dance class and effortlessly get thru the combos. I want to look in those mirrors on the wall and feel graceful when I move. I am doing all the right thing, I know that. It just feels on days like this that I am not making any progress.